You were smart, cool and sweet. You’re a breath of fresh air. You’re everything any girl would’ve wanted. Never in my wildest dreams did I think we’d go farther than being friends. But I wanted you in my life. You were my muse. You showed me another positive side of life. Eventually, I trusted you. Then, I loved you.
But what could have happened if we just never met?
Quite certainly, I would’ve saved myself from a tremendous heartache. Did you come in my life to teach me a lesson? If so, I wish you were a lesson I didn’t have to learn. Things weren’t so perfect when you came but I was okay. Still, you were there to cheer me up. Made me look at life from a different view. Said things are going to turn quite well. You offered me wisdom. You helped me become whole again.
Then you broke me just the same.
I’ve been contemplating for a very long time now if you were ever worth the love and time I gave you. Was the joy I felt with you worth this pain? Was it wrong to break my rules for you? Was I so naive to think that I meant something to you? Was it wrong that I trusted you? Or was I a fool for loving you?
If I could turn back time to the night we first kissed and change it all, I will. If only I knew that you’d give me more pain than joy, I would have left it all the way it once were. If only I knew you’d leave me for little mishaps and uncertainties, I shouldn’t have let things went too far.
Perhaps it’s true that everyone we meet in our lives come for a purpose or a reason. None of it is a coincidence. None of it a mistake. It’s been some time now since you did what you did and I’m trying to put them all past me. But some days, it all just comes back, reopens the wound you left me and hurts like hell again.
That is why sometimes, I wish we never met.
What a read! Lots to catch up. You write just like that and it turns out to be so good. My best wishes to you. May you become whatever you want to be. 👍
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Thanks a lot for your kind words, Jeni. It’s been a long while. How have you been? I hope everything’s great with you. Thanks for taking time to read. I’m delighted! Have a wonderful day!😃
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Really touching. Thanks for thebpost
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Oh, thank you for your kind words… Have a lovely day! 🙂
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Reblogged this on davidbruceblog #2.
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Thank you!
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This is very heartbreaking and painful.
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It is…
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I can relate this.. nicely penned
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Nice to know someone who could relate to it… thank you!🙂
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😊👍
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I couldn’t have said it better myself. You just summed an experience I had this past summer. Luckily, he and I didn’t kiss, that would have broken more pieces from my heart, I think. But it’s true about people coming into our lives for a season, reason, or lifetime. It’s hard to see which it is. Humans we wear our heart on our sleeves a lot. Great poem.
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Good thing you didn’t go farther and deeper as it happened with mine… because yeah, I think, the wound’s gonna cut deeper, too…
Thanks for reading.🙂
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You’re welcome! Oh don’t get me wrong I was in that predicament last year. And I was in it way too deep, 4yrs to be exact. And in the end truth came out! I’ve not experience betrayal like that before. But I’ve gotten better with forgiveness.
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It’s always easy for me to forgive but sometimes, when something or someone or someplace reminds you of him, it just all start coming back. I think that’s the difficult part for me… but I’m alright. Thanks for sharing!🙂
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You’re absolutely right. You’ll be just fine. It takes time. Have a great day ☺️
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You, too! 🙂
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This is really from the heart. The feeling are palpable. Thanks for sharing
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Oh, thanks for reading.🙂
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My pleasure.
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