My First Kiss Went A Little Like This

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Do you remember your first kiss? Yes, the very first! How nice was it? Or how terrible? Ideally, specially as teenagers, we expect our first kiss to be sweet and romantic! Or hot and wild! Intense! Oh dear! Locking lips with someone we like should send tingles up our spine and leave us feeling incoherent after.

Contrary to the perfect romantic first kisses I’ve either read, watched, imagined or hoped for, mine was a turn-off. Let me walk you down memory lane because my first kiss went a little like this…

My first kiss happened many moons ago, I was fourteen, he was sixteen. His name’s Andrew. He was my ultimate crush then and little did I know that he’s got a crush on me, too. We attended the same high school and we were both athletes. We’ve known each other by face and was only formally introduced to each other in a party after almost a year of smiles and hellos during training/practice or in the corridors.

We were dating for more than a month already when it happened. Since I belong to the science classes, he has to wait for me for about an hour until I finish my last class. After class that day, we went to the small garden just at the back of his classroom so he can help me with my homework. (I remember I suck in Biology and Chemistry then!) Once we’re done, we started walking while holding hands as he led me to his classroom door.

The touch: We were holding hands then he pulled me to him and pushed me gently against the classroom door then placed his left arm around my waist while his right hand caressed my face. (I liked that part!)

The ambiance: I never thought that my first kiss would be in the most romantic place in the world — in school, outside his classroom door! I mean, come on, I’ve imagined a kind of romantic setting, too. But definitely not in school!

The kiss: Well, our noses bumped at first and I was about to laugh but he kissed me right away and the first few tender brushes of his lips against mine was magic, it did really sent tingles up my spine and made all my body cells come to life until…

The tongue situation: Eeeewww! Just eeeewww! Oh boy! Was the tongue even supposed to be there??? It’s just wet! And sloppy! I was shocked! I wanted to punch him in the face!

The aftermath: Absolutely awkward. Confusing. Disappointing. In my mind, I’m trying to figure out what just happened. Funny thing is, I ended up having a very high fever that night and wasn’t able to go to school the next day!

So my first kiss didn’t happen according to plan but well, life isn’t a movie set. But in between homework and practice, the kisses got better, more quality kissing took over for the next two years.

So how was your first kiss? Was is sweet? Or was it terrible? How old were you then? Did it turn out the way you’ve imagined it to be? I’d love to hear, after all, what better time to delurk if not during first-kiss-story sharing time, right?

17 Things I Don’t Do Anymore

One thing I like when boredom strikes me is that I get to think about things I don’t normally think about on an ordinary day. I’ve realized there are a number of things I don’t do anymore, some I’ve stopped doing a couple of years ago, some I’ve stopped doing very recently. Over the past nine years, being a resident of this small, oil-rich Arab country, in a way, has changed me.

1. I no longer buy things on impulse.

Visit my home (specially back in the Philippines) and you’ll find lots of useless things there way, way too much more than those that are actually useful. I could maybe explain why I don’t use them at all but I’m not so sure I can explain why I bought them in the first place. Perhaps because I found it cute when I bought it? Or maybe because it’s purple. Or probably because it was on sale. I used to be the perfect example of an impulsive buyer specially when I lived in Manila. I’m very poor in handling my own money, seriously. I don’t know how to control and save. So I let my mom take over it. I try not to give myself access to my own money as much as I could and since I don’t have that much access to it anymore, I’ve stopped buying things on impulse.

2. I stopped eating junk.

Yes, I totally stopped eating junk! Fast foods, canned foods, instant noodles and the like. One day I just realized I want to eat “real” food all the time so goodbye junk foods!

3. I don’t avoid the dentist anymore.

I don’t like going to the dentist since I was small. I’d rather get bitten by a dog than visit a place of misery that is the dentist’s office. The needle, the drill, the pain, the smell, the long time waiting, etc. But the truth is, we need them in the long run. I’m not saying I love going to a dental clinic now but I don’t avoid doing so anymore.

4. I no longer party until wee hours then go to work at 7 AM.

I think we all reach a point in our lives when we just get tired of partying or drinking until late hours at night or early hours in the morning. I must’ve reached that point a couple of months back and so I decided to put an end to it… for now. 😉

5. I don’t shy away from the microphone anymore. 😅😁

Come on, guys! It’s never too late to be a singer!

6. I stopped checking my phone right away when I wake up.

It’s not healthy. And it just doesn’t feel right.

7. I don’t engage in online arguments any longer.

It’s head-aching and who wants that?

8. I realized I don’t memorize mobile numbers anymore.

Since college, I unintentionally memorize almost all the mobile numbers on my phone book! I don’t know why but yeah, I used to have all the numbers in my head. When, why and how I stopped doing this? I don’t know!

9. I stopped living in the past.

I should have done this sooner but it ain’t always that easy, right?

10. I stopped loving the wrong people.

The time I’ve spent loving them was more than enough.

11. I again no longer explain myself anymore when I say no.

I don’t know when did I start explaining myself to people when I say no. Why and when I started feeling guilty saying no to people. I guess I was trying to be kind to them? Or I don’t want to hurt them? Anyhow, I’m back to the old me, no means no.

12. I stopped drinking coffee like it’s my job.

I stopped drinking coffee not long ago. I used to drink at least five cups of black coffee everyday and I feel like there’s more coffee running through my veins already than blood. It wasn’t easy the first two weeks but I’m pretty much back to normal now.

13. I stopped apologizing.

Apologizing for not replying back to emails, not responding to text messages right away, missing a day at work because of health reasons, bombarding others with emails to catch a deadline, declining dinner invitations, refusing to go out with people, not being able to cook pretty well, talking too much, laughing out loud, being old school, etc. I totally stopped apologizing for such things. If people don’t like me the way I am, that’s their problem, not mine.

14. I stopped giving a damn to people who don’t give the slightest damn about me.

Need I say more?

15. I don’t write a journal anymore.

I’ve been writing since grade school but decided to stop since the beginning of the year. I’d still recommend others to keep a personal journal because it is actually a good thing and it’s been a great company to me for years. I wasn’t fed up writing or anything, it just occurred to me to stop and that was the end of it.

16. I no longer spend too much time on social media.

Not that I spend way too much of my precious time on social media, but my social media world is limited to Instagram and Twitter only. I don’t really post as much as before on Instagram anymore and I just started with Twitter a few months back which I hardly checkout, as well, except for tennis updates.

17. I don’t do things I don’t want to do anymore.

It saves me a lot of work, gives me a lot of positive energy and helps me keep a good mindset.

I think there’s more to add on this list but I’ll stop at seventeen, besides, I have some work to do now so it’s your turn this time… What things do you not do anymore? What things have changed? Share them in the comment section.

Have a great day, homo sapiens!😊

Quote of the Week

Two people who were once very close can without blame or grand betrayal become strangers. Perhaps this is the saddest thing in the world.

-Warsan Shire