I loved you the best
way I know how. Where then did
I go wrong with that?
Today, another part of me died.
The relationship ended, the feelings didn’t.
Six words ain’t enough to explain.
He left against her will but told her to wait for him.
She waited and endlessly hoped for him to return.
A couple of years later he asked her to follow him instead.
She hesitated for it’s not easy to give up the life she created for herself.
But she followed him just the same willing to start a new life again.
Soon they were together.
But her happiness and excitement was short-lived.
For in front of her eyes was someone else.
Someone else is the source of his happiness.
We were talking and laughing so hard over dinner one cold December night.
It felt like I’ve known you for so long when it was actually the first time we went out.
My mind connected with yours like it never did with other people.
The kind of connection I needed then to bring me back to life.
It never occurred to me that we’d someday meet and spend time together.
Because though we’re under the same sky, we belong in different worlds.
It’s really amazing how someone who was just a stranger to you before,
Would suddenly be someone who’d mean so much to you.
Even until now I’m not sure what we were then.
What I’m sure of is that you made me feel butterflies again.
My heart became alive anew as I found my ability to share what’s in me once more.
It’s nice reminiscing about it,
Reliving every second, every minute of that winter night.
It can’t be real anymore but it’s still something I hold on to.
A year ago today was when I opened myself completely to you.
Sometimes my mind wishes I shouldn’t have.
My heart says otherwise.
Maybe it’s not harmful to hold on to the feelings I felt then.
Because it’s a reminder of how I am still capable to feel something for someone.
I’m not numb after all but in a way scared to experience it again.
I’m probably not made for you.
Letting all go; wondering who’ll stay.
To be the blood that’s
pumping in your heart is the
very thing I want.