I loved you the best
way I know how. Where then did
I go wrong with that?
The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.
Today, another part of me died.
The relationship ended, the feelings didn’t.
Six words ain’t enough to explain.
He left against her will but told her to wait for him.
She waited and endlessly hoped for him to return.
A couple of years later he asked her to follow him instead.
She hesitated for it’s not easy to give up the life she created for herself.
But she followed him just the same willing to start a new life again.
Soon they were together.
But her happiness and excitement was short-lived.
For in front of her eyes was someone else.
Someone else is the source of his happiness.
We were talking and laughing so hard over dinner one cold December night.
It felt like I’ve known you for so long when it was actually the first time we went out.
My mind connected with yours like it never did with other people.
The kind of connection I needed then to bring me back to life.
It never occurred to me that we’d someday meet and spend time together.
Because though we’re under the same sky, we belong in different worlds.
It’s really amazing how someone who was just a stranger to you before,
Would suddenly be someone who’d mean so much to you.
Even until now I’m not sure what we were then.
What I’m sure of is that you made me feel butterflies again.
My heart became alive anew as I found my ability to share what’s in me once more.
It’s nice reminiscing about it,
Reliving every second, every minute of that winter night.
It can’t be real anymore but it’s still something I hold on to.
A year ago today was when I opened myself completely to you.
Sometimes my mind wishes I shouldn’t have.
My heart says otherwise.
Maybe it’s not harmful to hold on to the feelings I felt then.
Because it’s a reminder of how I am still capable to feel something for someone.
I’m not numb after all but in a way scared to experience it again.
Many thanks to Sameera for nominating me for my third Liebster Award! Do check out and enjoy this very young lady’s blog here.
- Thank the blogger that nominated you.
- Answer the questions from the blogger who nominated you.
- Nominate 5-11 blogs/bloggers.
- Ask the bloggers 10-11 questions.
Here are Sameera’s questions and my answers:
One thing that you would like to change in your life.
Hmmm, this is difficult. There are some things I’d like to change but I think altering them would also change the rest of my life so I’d rather not. However, I’d like to say that I’d consider being less-friendly if I could.
What would you do if you are about to lose everything in your life?
Now this is even more difficult. Hmmm… well, what should I do? What can I do? I’d probably let it all go at that moment, think about the loss and feel it, then work my ass to retrieve back the things/people I’ve lost that matter and live a better life in order not to lose them again.
Advice you would like to give to me about my poems.
As I always mention, I don’t think I’m in the position to give advice to writers/bloggers but just keep on writing (according to my writer friend), I think you’d learn as you write more.
The person who influenced you the most.
My parents. They’re two very different individuals and I wonder how they’ve managed to stay together for thirty-nine years (and counting) but they instilled in me moral values that helped me learn and grow in every way.
Any adventurous thing you would like to share.
I find it really very adventurous trying every kind of food I see wherever I am and the best food adventure I had was in Hanoi, Vietnam. You’ll never run out of something new for your taste buds. 🙂
Books you would like to read.
There are tons of books I’d like to read and I still have more than 50 unread books on my shelves! Yay!
If you had one last chance to change anything what would it be?
Same answer to the first question.
How you came across writing blog?
I’m not sure I understand this question right but if you meant how I decided to write a blog, well, it was purely out of boredom two years ago…
What inspires you to write?
I usually only get to write when I feel too much. I’m no writer/blogger. It just so happens that some thoughts come into mind and I just write them.
Apart from writing what else you love to do in life.
I love eating, reading, playing tennis and making other people’s lives miserable. Haha! Just kidding about the last one! 😀
The nominees are:
And my questions are:
- What do you do in your free time?
- What’s your dream job?
- Which do you prefer more, watching TV or reading?
- What does your perfect day look like?
- How would your friends describe you?
- What accomplishment are you most proud of?
- Recommend a movie. Why do you recommend it?
- When you’re having a bad day, what do you do to make yourself feel better?
- What’s your favorite time of day?
- If you could be anywhere else right now, where would it be?
I can’t think of better questions to ask at the moment but I’m very interested to know your answers.
Once again, thank you, Sameera!
Happy day, homo sapiens! 🙂